Bob’s funeral was Saturday, February 4th. The visitation,the funeral, all the friends and family who came to comfort me, every thing, is a blur, like a dream. My sister-in-law took me to the court-house to help me get started with settling the estate. Even with a will there is so much to do. She is very organized and aware of the things that need to be done. With her help, I have many necessary things in the works. She and her husband left for the airport early this morning. I will miss them very much. My daughter went home Tuesday night and back to work today. My son lives near and come in and out from time to time but he works many hours. My grandson is here with me most of the time. Bob’s dear aunt lives nearby and she and her husband will continue to check up on me. I have numerous family and friends who want to help me through this heartbreaking time.
Even with all these wonderful people in my life, my grief seems more and more intense as the days pass. I guess the first few days there was so much going on that my feelings were held at bay. Now I’m feeling such immense pain that it is impossible stay composed at times. I plan to go to the grief counseling sessions held at The Gordon Hospice House. People have told me that writing about difficult times is therapeutic. Sometimes I cannot to talk to anyone without having tears. So many people tells me I am very strong but I don’t feel so strong with tears streaming down my face. I know that I have rambled on too much.
Nancy Shoemaker 2/9/2012
Nancy,
We are still praying for you and I know that these times are very difficult. Never feel guilty about your grief or feel bad for you tears. We are here for anything you may need. Know we love you and praying God’s comfort to be wrapped around you.
Regina