Tying Up Loose Ends

Bob passed away 3 weeks ago after battling a glioblastoma brain tumor since November 2011. I have tried to stay busy and I do have enough to do to stay busy 24 hours a day. If some one calls me and ask me to accompany them to some place of interest I usually go to get out.  Last week end I was very lazy.  I didn’t get dressed Saturday or Sunday. I just walked around in my pajamas all day.  Both of  my of children and my grandson were here for most of time.  We had our first snow Sunday evening  but it didn’t last long. There was no accumulation.  I think it would be considered only a trace.  They help me with some projects around the house, cooked, ran to the store, and just kept me company.

This morning when I awoke I wondered where Bob was and in that same instant I realized he was deceased.  I think of something I want to share with him and instantly realize I can’t.  I go around talking to my self addressing the conversation to him.  I am having hearing problems and I went to an ear nose and throat doctor. I go back tomorrow to follow up after having an MRI.  I had Bob’s hearing aid trying to see if it would benefit me.  When it is turned on it makes a high pitched tune.  When Lilly, my little dog, who was so close to Bob, heard the tune she came running looking for Bob.  She still hunts for him.  When I would walk her she would want to go into the motor home. I finely let her go in and she searched it from one end to the other hunting him.

I seem to be more and more absentminded.  Friday I walked off  and left the water running in the kitchen sink. Needless to say, I was met by a 1/4 inch of water. It flooded the kitchen and seeped into the living room carpet. That was a big mess to clean up. Last night I left a pot boiling on the stove.  My grandson noticed smoke in the kitchen. He turned the burner off and opened the window. I told him that it was not safe to leave me alone. He was amused at that.

I have been tying up loose ends in settling up the estate. Who knew it would be so time consuming?  I couldn’t find the car titles and had to apply for them at the DMV. I have most everything started and I don’t have to go back to the courthouse until May.

I have so many friends and family who have been at my side all through this ordeal. I appreciate all that you do for me and I hope I will soon be able to write acknowledgement cards without being so emotional.

Nancy Shoemaker 2/21/2012